Wednesday, July 30, 2008
9:05 PM
hi all
am here once again
look out of the window!
there's a blue moon
n that's y i'm here blogging
seriously i have just wasted like almost 3 hrs doing nth
but before tt
let me 1st apologise to ppl whom i removed from my links
cuz i really dun see e point of putting it dere when it's either
u dun update much
or tt i dun visit dere often
=/
today was e 'rehearsal' for the pbspeak persuasive /information speech
kinda cool
seriously
i really
anyhow whacked did rehearse a little bit for it
n it's kinda easy to hit e 2 minutes target
hurhur
alright
i have seen that many ppl are putting up e personality test thingy..
n i really dunno abt mi
cuz i t0ok it twice n e results weren't consistent?
thus it is not reliable n some of e qns are not valid?
HAHAHAHAHA
ok
think i'm abit mad abt psych
XDD
0h wells
my 2nd test says that i'm 85%musical, 80% maths n 70% naturalist
XD
i tink so..
>.<
0h
there's s0mething b0thering me very badly lately
REAL BAD.
i'm considering SERIOUSLY whether to quit dragonboat or not
i know it seems all sudden
but actually i've been thinking about it for a very long time
and now it's hitting me real hard cuz i realise how much commitments i actually have
studies club, piano, studies, NYAA n DB
now look,
DB is taking 4 days of my every week..
i really feel exhausted every time after training by the time i reach home
but the thing is
there is a sense of accomplishment each time after the training is done
but i've been getting so much wounds from DB that i'm really starting to not see the point of going for training when each time i go there to push myself so hard n get hurt at e end of the day
but the bond is forming between us
n i can feel it getting stonger each time i go for training
i know that i shouldn't quit now
by e fact that there is already left so little girls in DB
but 4 days a week is really alot
esp when there is training on sats n suns
my weekend is jus gone like that
moreover
i'm nt only e asst. secretary of e studies club with lots of minutes to do
i'm also commited in a r/s
i know that's not e main point
but HE has been complaining abt my neglection towards him
well
that is really not e point
but i feel that going to training is really taking up too much of my time
n that i really feel packed to the brim of e box
i feel that i cannot breathe
i feel exhausted...
but i dun wanna quit
i hvn't achieve my goal of joining DB in e 1st place
i hvn get my pedal
i hvn win a medal
i hvn g0tten e gl0ry i want t0 have
i hvn win
i hvn proved to myself that i can be committed
i need more time
some more my NYAA also need at least 40hrs of recreational activity over a period of 12 weeks
which i definitely can get from DB
but i dunno where i can find the time to do the adventurerous section if all my time is going to be spent on DB
i really dunno what to do
feeling so confused right now
any advice from anyone?
=/
as for now i really dun wish to care
i jus wanna carry on rowing
i'll jus count the days as it goes..
pictures n details abt today will be posted another time
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...thepurplegirl...
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